Dear 2021

Hello readers!So it is 17th November,2020 ; hardly 1.5 months left for the year to end and yes I do have a lot of angerness towards the year 2021.I mean this year has been so fucking depressing for me.It’s really emotional for me to even write on this.I lost my grandma,I could not get into my choice of college.I mean the ones in which I really wanted to go,I have failed badly in academics .From being a person with more than 90% ,I have jumped into the 80’s line.It definitely feels bad.Also could not clear any competitive exam nor get into a country’s top college.It’s heart breaking man.And just cancelling plans of moving abroad due to some or the other reasons.It feels heart breaking,suicidal and useless.The feeling so bad that just can’t be expressed into words.The plans of making a good future just shattered at once(like in a second).

Well,it has been hard,like damn hard to recover from these failures.Like these are just the back to back failures I have received in this year.I won’t actually say that the year was bad but I think I only did not work hard.It’s just because of me.Seeing my friends getting into good colleges that basically I wanted to go makes me feel bad.I mean definitely happy for them but at the end of the day I did not got into my dream college.Which definitely annoys me.I don’t know what future has more me.At the moment I feel depressed and a lot more.And most importantly just worried about my future like where am I even gonna end up at the end of these four years.Will the conditions work in favour of me or will they not.It feels surreal.Like how things have actually turned upside down and how thing’s are actually not working in favour of me.

It also feels surreal that how in my life so much uncertainty has come.How life was actually full of certainty before all this drama.I really sick man of all this drama that have actually been going in my life.

Well,let’s just close this blog here because I just don’t want you people to feel bored.

Thanks for reading!!